(via justmyskinandbones)
bingeeeee
binged tonight. then purged. it all :)
fasting tomorrow. yay! feel like i lost my control tonight. time to get control tomorrow.
(Source: onehundreddayproject, via losingweight-findingmyself)
oh and ps..
I ate approx 350 calories today.. Before the ‘forced eating’.. self control was at its best.
Then I topped over 1500….. WOW.
absolute fail.
hate myself.
tomorrow will be better.
no pressure.
no food.
and gym.
hate technology.
had a huge diary entry typed.
lost it because i back spaced one too many times. Ill try to write it in a nutshell.
cw: 173
this years sw: 150..
reason for gain? stupid sister who is always in my business and stupid mother who listens to my sister.
Doctor has prescribed many blood tests, monthly meetings and therapy. Should I not comply… I will be sent away. Absolute bullshit.
Now been diagnosed with being anemic. So according to my parents I am unable to start online schooling which can be one course every four months ( aka nothing ) , but I am more then stable to go off on my own traveling for a year or more? Perfect logic.
I hate the rules of my family.
Time for sleep. It’s my only escape.
